Thursday 16th August
Don’t let them get to you. You know who ‘they’ are, and so do they. You also know that your mission is easier said than done, especially when whomever you’re up against knows exactly what to do to make your life miserable. Hang tough, though. If you give in and get nasty, you’ll be letting them win, and while you do have a reputation for being fair, you don’t like to lose. Do what comes best — and easiest. Kill ’em with kindness.
This horoscope thing has me all messed up.
I was literally two seconds away from going crazy and then this horoscope email came through…
I read the words and instantly, I knew what to do.
WHAT KIND OF SORCERY IS THIS?
No, really, this is freaky. I know that tomorrow’s will be completely off topic and nowhere near relatable, but this one…it hit me hard. It was like that moment after I realised that Tom Cruise really does run a lot in his movies.
I decided to follow the horoscope advice and keep it cool.
What happened was that I told Dumb-Dumb (see this post) that I had heard something about him. I let a whole day pass by before I told him not to worry about it. He seemed irritated and I was just playing dumb. I said it would be better to talk in person. I tossed and turned and couldn’t sleep because of my leg and I realised that waiting for a moment that he would do everything to avoid was stupid.
It was just delaying the inevitable.
So, I told him what I heard and his response was ‘…lol’.
I deliberately didn’t mention the person’s name because when it comes down to it, I have no interest in talking about someone I don’t know behind their back. He tried to be funny about that. Saying I have to say a name. I was like, ‘nah, if it’s true, then you already know’. He told me that he’s going to leave me to figure it out…
Lol, what in the manipulative bullshit hell… I have no idea what was happening, but this was the moment where I was like NOPE.
TRULY, DEEPLY, MADLY NOPE.
I told him that I was good and that I have better things to do.
He found that funny.
I told him to be straight with me. He basically refused. It was really weird. I said well, this is typical, this is what you always do – some things never change.
He said I was funny.
I told him that I know that. I’m fucking hilarious. Don’t you forget it, asshole.
There was a lull and I asked him if that’s all he has to say and apparently that is indeed all he has to say. I was just like ??? the truth will set you free, but nah, he wasn’t having it.
Some ‘friend‘ he is. I think this is the worst thing he’s done to me by far. Like I said, if he’s with someone else – fine. It’s the part where he was texting me at the same time that I don’t like. I’m sure he was really feeling himself, but I’m cool.
Anyway, on my way home on I deleted all of the messages, I deleted his number. If I could delete every single memory of him from my brain, I would.
I feel dirty and used. I feel humiliated, embarrassed, but I know that it’s not my fault. There’s no feeling of relief or anything like that I just feel kind of… weird.
I seriously wish that we didn’t work together. I wish that I’d ignored him. I wish we’d never met. I wish that I would stop attracting these crazy individuals who seem to only derive pleasure in hurting me.
Most of all, I wish I could tell him to fuck off, LOL. I wrote a long ass message that I never sent. I will post it here sometime, maybe.
Right now I’m just pissed off.
In the meantime, I seem to be done for good (finally), but I am predicting bullshit in the near future.
I’ll keep y’all posted.
P.S. thank you to anyone who has been listening to me ramble about this dickhead and provided me with opinions, advice or just an ear.
I think sometimes when we blog we tend to get caught up in our own worlds, so thank you to anyone who was also caught up in mine. 💜