expiry dates are just a guideline | Random Thoughts #25

Hello, guys! 

I feel human right now. I, who feels inhuman 99.9% of the time, feel human. The reason? My Vitamin B complex. It’s expired now but I took it anyway because I was yawning at fucking four pm and I got annoyed. It made me feel a loser, so I was like, eff yeah, I’m going to take a vitamin! In your face fatigue! It didn’t do me any harm, so I think they’re okay to take for now at least. 

Today was okay, though, I mostly chilled and listened to some music. I got some lipsticks and eyeshadow in the mail today, and a Vitamin E face mask. Expect a new me on Monday. LOL. 

I also accidentally ended up watching Bob’s thing on Instagram. I promise you it was an accident. My Canadian husbands Billy Talent had a story up and I was watching it and I can’t for the life of me figure out how to stop stories from automatically playing one after the other. Is there a way to do that? I think they’re usually in alphabetical order because Bob usually comes up first, but maybe that’s not the case because Bob’s name begins with A (I know, game changer) and it went straight into his story. Anyway, it was more of the same vapid nonsense. 

Him and Mrs Bob (his gf, I guess, idk who she is lol but this is what I’m calling her) are in some kind of field, potentially picnicking and… That’s it. Neither of them even said anything. I was just wondering what the point was. It was weird. Enjoy your weekend, Barbie and Ken! We already know what you look like, don’t worry, we won’t forget if you keep the camera away from yourselves for one day. I promise.

Anyway, what else? I finished an original story. WHEEEEEEE. I shall post it here soon. 🙂

My friend also challenged me to write a story under 5000 words because I am incapable of keeping things short (short stories aside, lol). I’m at 4200 now and nowhere near finished. Watch me cut out the excess like an editor of a B movie leaving the parts of the movie that make sense on the cutting room floor. 

Also, people always think that I’m a guy on here. Is this because my picture was of a guy before, do I sound like a guy? Do I swear too much? Answers on a post card, please. LOL. 

That’s all for now folks. More randomness soon. 💜

Time-Bomb Ticking Away [song of the week]


Just when you thought you’ve seen it all
A storm awaits behind the door
Disgruntled right down to the core
We still go on

~

Watching the time bomb ticking away
Watching the time bomb nobody cares ’till it’s too late
Watching the time bomb ticking away
Watching the time bomb you better pray you’re somewhere safe

~

Oh, we got a time bomb ticking away inside
And the only way to make us laugh is to make us cry

[Billy Talent, Time-Bomb Ticking Away]

leave them all behind

[the statement: The only friend I need is myself

the admission: actually, other friends would be kinda nice]

I got a message from a friend a few days ago. It was out of the blue really, although, I’d just been thinking about her. It’s strange to me. I’m the kind of person that’s always kept up with people, but I have a habit of befriending people who can’t be bothered. Or they’re too busy to make time. The list goes on. And on. 

At the end of the day, I am one person and just having three or four friends like that is a lot. All of my friends being like that was too much. So I have zero. Yes, I’m friendless for the most part. I mean, I have friends, but only a few people that I’d feel obligated to get in touch with after say a couple of weeks of not talking. I’m done with all of that for now. 

Friends kind of suck. 

Or maybe I am the friend that sucks. 

It doesn’t matter. I always swear I am done with it. I’ll admit that I do sometimes wake up and think is this normal but you know what? Fuck it. I’m happy to be the disposable friend. Y’all can say hi and I’ll say hi back and wait for you to initiate our next period of silence. Is that cool? 

I have a friend that I went to school with. The second we weren’t in classes together anymore, it was crickets. I can’t even get a Twitter reply from her these days. Someone I know in real life. The audacity of it all. I don’t have better luck online to be honest. I attract certain people. Or I’m too nice. Probably a combination. I’m reliable S, always there when someone needs something or has an issue. I will always reply when I’m able to because I know what it’s like to not get replies. These days it doesn’t bother me much. I’ve conditioned myself to see responses as a bonus, and I have enough anxiety that sometimes silence isn’t the worst thing. 

Anyway, why am I suddenly ranting about this? Well, the loves of my life (seriously, I’d marry any of the unmarried members if they were interested. I can relocate to Canada!) Billy Talent have a song on their album called ‘Leave Them All Behind‘ which I adore. It’s an inspirational song that sort of makes me want to run away? Not in a bad way. 

Obviously, I can’t due to lack of funds, but seriously, I want to leave everyone behind and just do my own thing away from continuous disappointment. 

Sometimes, a girl’s gotta do what she’s gotta do. 

Sometimes. 

~

Written as a response to Linda G. Hill’s SOCS prompt

What I’m Listening To This Week

There’s nothing better than hearing a song that you really like and then proceeding to listen to it obsessively for the next three days. Eventually, I get too lazy to keep disrupting shuffle but I’m always left with the memories.

This week, that song for me is ‘Afraid of Heights’ by Billy Talent. They are the Canadian Kings of using metaphors to write a rockin’ rock (and in this case love) song. I simply adore them. And if you don’t. I suggest that you [insert something that a Directioner would probably say] and change your mind INSTANTLY!

Just kidding. ;p